Finding My Way in Christ: Trusting God's Plan for Spiritual Growth

rameriah
Feb 4
7 min read

My Journey with God: A Personal Story

The Struggles of Doubt and Failure

As you may know, this blog is all about my journey in finding my way in Christ. It is a path that has been both enlightening and challenging, filled with moments of joy, reflection, and sometimes, profound struggle. Throughout this experience, I have encountered doubt, which can often feel like a heavy cloud looming over my spirit, and an overwhelming feeling of failure that sometimes threatens to derail my progress. These feelings can be particularly intense during times of personal trial or when I reflect on the many ways I fall short of my own expectations and the teachings I hold dear. However, as I continue to read and practice the Word, immersing myself in Scripture and seeking to understand its teachings more deeply, I find solace and strength in the promises contained within those pages. I know that as long as I am striving for a relationship with God, earnestly seeking His presence in my life, I am making improvements, however small they may seem. Every day I immerse myself in the world, acknowledging that I am not as consistent as I wish to be, but I am better than I was before. I notice a spiritual difference within myself when I haven't focused on discussing or learning about God. Each day offers a new opportunity to grow, learn, and deepen my faith. It is during these challenging moments that I often discover the most valuable lessons, reminding me that the journey is not about perfection but about progress and perseverance in my walk with Christ. I am grateful for every step, every stumble, and every moment of clarity that leads me closer to understanding His will for my life.

Surrendering to God's Plan

To be honest with you, I find myself in a rather perplexing situation regarding the topic to discuss in this blog today. Despite my best efforts, I was not and am not entirely certain what specific theme or subject matter would resonate most effectively with you, my readers. In my quest for clarity and direction, I have turned to prayer, seeking divine guidance from God, hoping that I might receive inspiration that would illuminate the path forward. I have taken the time to create over two drafts, each one meticulously crafted with thoughts and ideas that I believed could be meaningful and impactful. However, as I reviewed these drafts, I realized that neither of them felt quite right or aligned with what I sensed should be shared on this particular day. As I sit here and type these words, I want to emphasize that I am writing from a place of sincerity and openness, allowing my heart and mind to flow freely onto the page. It is my intention to let go of any preconceived notions or expectations and instead fully embrace the moment, trusting that God will guide my thoughts and words. This process of writing is not merely an act of putting words together; it is a journey of exploration and reflection, where I am open to whatever message may emerge. I believe that when we allow ourselves to be vulnerable and receptive, we can tap into a deeper understanding of ourselves and our experiences. Therefore, I invite you to join me on this journey as I seek to articulate what is on my heart, fully trusting that the right message will unfold in due time.

Trusting God with My Future

Lately, my heart has been heavy with thoughts about my future in Christ, a future that I know is filled with promise and hope, yet at times seems obscured by the challenges of my present circumstances. I often catch glimpses of the glorious wonders He has in store for me, moments of clarity where I can almost touch the beauty of His plans. These moments fill me with anticipation and joy, yet I struggle to see beyond what unfolds in front of me on a daily basis—the mundane routines, the trials, and the uncertainties that life presents. This internal conflict has been a significant challenge, testing my faith and resolve. This aligns with a recent Bible study we conducted titled "Unlock the Power of God's Word," where we concluded that our faith is the currency to receive blessings from God. We often find ourselves overthinking and depending only on what we see, but as the verse 2 Corinthians states, "For we walk by faith, not by sight." This means we should trust in God based on the understanding we gain from His word rather than worldly knowledge.

However, we must not confuse faith with merely hoping our requests will be fulfilled. As followers of Christ, we should understand that faith is not the same as hope, and once we entrust something to God, it will be received, and we will witness the victory because faith is the substance of things hoped for and the belief in things unseen. That ultimately requires us to shift our own mindset as we often do when undergoing changes in life. This process of mental adjustment is crucial, as it allows us to adapt to new circumstances, embrace different perspectives, and develop resilience in the face of challenges. When we encounter significant transitions—whether they be personal, professional, or emotional—it is essential to recognize that our thoughts and attitudes play a pivotal role in how we navigate these changes. By consciously choosing to cultivate a growth mindset, we open ourselves up to new opportunities and possibilities that may have previously seemed daunting or unattainable. This shift in perspective encourages us to view obstacles not as insurmountable barriers, but rather as valuable learning experiences that contribute to our personal development. Moreover, embracing this adaptability fosters a sense of empowerment, enabling us to take proactive steps toward our goals and aspirations, ultimately leading to a more fulfilling and enriched life experience. However, in the midst of this struggle, I also recognize that I am growing spiritually, evolving in ways that I had not anticipated. In the past, these uncertainties would have left me feeling incompetent or stuck, caught in a cycle of doubt and fear. I would have been overwhelmed by the weight of my worries, unable to see the light of hope that faith offers. However, now, I mostly feel that I am experiencing a spiritual warfare that I am actively conquering, equipped with the armor of God and the strength that comes from my relationship with Him. I have come to understand that these challenges are not just obstacles, but opportunities for growth and deeper understanding of my faith. I no longer feel the same worry or defeat that used to consume me; instead, I find myself embracing the journey, trusting that each step I take is guided by His hand. This transformation has been profound, allowing me to approach my future with a renewed sense of purpose and confidence, knowing that I am not alone in this battle.

Recognizing Spiritual Growth

There's something really powerful and life-changing about noticing your spiritual growth as it happens. This awareness often gives life a clear and refreshing sense of purpose, lighting up the path ahead even when the future seems a bit unclear. In these uncertain moments, I find a lot of comfort and reassurance in believing that God is guiding me, gently leading me through life's complexities. This divine presence acts like a compass, giving me direction and clarity, helping me navigate uncertainties with a heart full of unwavering faith and hope. Every step I take, no matter how small or seemingly insignificant, is important; it brings me closer to Him and marks real progress on my spiritual journey. I've come to really appreciate these small steps, seeing them in different forms—whether it's a new understanding that suddenly hits me, a moment of clarity that cuts through confusion, or an act of kindness that I either give or receive. Each of these experiences adds to my growth in unique and meaningful ways. My journey, while not perfect, is rich with lessons; it's filled with challenges, moments of doubt, and struggles that test my resolve, yet it's uniquely mine, shaped by my own experiences and choices. I trust completely that God is carefully shaping me into the person He envisions, teaching me resilience, compassion, and wisdom along this path of discovery. Through this ongoing process, I'm learning to embrace my imperfections and the valuable lessons they bring, realizing that every experience—whether joyful or painful—has a purpose in the bigger picture of my life. Whenever I succeed or fail, it's like adding another colorful thread to my life's crazy quilt, helping me figure out who I am and what the heck I'm doing here! As I become more aware of my growth, I'm starting to understand that spiritual maturity isn't a final destination, but rather an ongoing journey of discovery, transformation, and deepening awareness. It's a continuous cycle of learning, evolving, and expanding my consciousness, where each phase brings new insights and revelations. This journey invites me to stay open to change, seek out new experiences, and build a deeper relationship with the divine. As I walk this path, I'm increasingly aware that every step, no matter how small, is a vital part of my spiritual evolution, and I embrace the journey with a heart full of gratitude and anticipation.

Encouragement for Others

If you are feeling lost, doubtful, or uncertain about your path, know that you are not alone. Trust in God’s timing and continue to walk in faith. He is working, even when we cannot see it. Our doubts and struggles do not define us—our perseverance and faith do. Let’s keep pushing forward together, believing that He has already prepared the way.

Stay encouraged, and may God continue to guide us all on this journey.

Scriptures

2 Corinthians 2:7: "For we walk by faith, not by sight."

Romans 10:17: “Consequently, faith comes from hearing the message, and the message is heard through the word about Christ.”

Mark 11:24: "Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours."

Hebrews 11:6: “And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him.”