Life’s Highs and Lows: My Personal Journey on Mental Health Insights ✨💭💜

rameriah
Feb 11
5 min read

A Candid Conversation on Mental Health

The Rollercoaster Ride of Life 🎢💨😞

Life has a funny way of throwing us into unexpected twists and turns, much like a rollercoaster—thrilling one moment and overwhelming the next. I’ve often found myself gripping the safety bar, bracing for the unexpected drops, unsure whether to scream in fear or excitement. One day, everything seems to be aligning perfectly, and the next, it’s as if I’ve been hurled into chaos with no warning. The unpredictability can be exhilarating, but it can also leave me feeling unsteady, constantly adjusting to find my footing. Lately, I’ve found myself in one of those deep, exhausting lows, where even the simplest tasks feel heavy, and self-doubt seems to overshadow my conviction. The personal conviction can sometimes create a feeling of failure, or questions arise with no answers to be given. I had set an intention to be more consistent with my mental health and spiritual journey this year, yet here I am, struggling to find balance just a couple of months in. ✨😔💭

It’s frustrating to feel like I’m falling behind on my own expectations—whether it’s maintaining consistency in my spiritual journey, keeping up with personal growth, or simply staying on top of my daily responsibilities. The more I try to regain control, the more things seem to slip through my fingers. Have you ever felt like you’re running on a treadmill that won’t slow down? That’s exactly how I feel right now—chasing stability but never quite reaching it.

The Weight of Responsibilities 📅💼💔

Between work, personal relationships, and the expectations I place on myself, I often find that my mental well-being gets pushed to the back burner. It’s so easy to get caught up in the daily grind—checking off tasks, meeting deadlines, showing up for others—but at what cost? The reality is that constantly pouring from an empty cup only leaves us drained. I’ve been running on fumes, and it’s taken a toll on both my emotional and mental health. 😞💨💔

This reminds me of Matthew 11:28, where Jesus says, "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest." It’s a powerful reminder that we don’t have to carry everything alone—we are meant to seek rest and renewal. But even knowing this, I still find myself struggling to let go of the need to constantly be productive.There’s this unspoken pressure to keep pushing forward, even when we’re exhausted. I keep telling myself that I’ll take a break once I accomplish this or finish that, but the truth is, the work never ends. If I don’t make intentional efforts to pause and recharge, no one else will do it for me.

Reconnecting with Myself and My Faith 🙏📖💙

When I reflect on what’s been missing in my journey lately, I recognize that my connection with God has felt distant. Faith has always been a grounding force for me, yet in the midst of my exhaustion, I’ve neglected that relationship. It’s a humbling realization, but also a reminder that grace is always available. No matter how far we drift, we can always find our way back. 🌿🕊️✨

My next read is Psalms, and I am still hoping to complete the book before the end of February, but I have yet to begin reading. I have skimmed through the book itself, but actually reading chapters has felt more like a task than something I desire to do, and that’s not a feeling I long to have while reading through my Bible. Reflecting on my engagement with this sacred text, I recognize that my mood greatly influences my connection with scripture.

Although Bible study, with a group of amazing women on Monday and Wednesday, has been extremely helpful, I opted out of participating yesterday because I was feeling emotionally drained and disconnected. I couldn’t bring myself to be fully present in the conversation, and the thought of engaging felt overwhelming rather than uplifting. Trying to connect with my readings and my community really shows how important emotional well-being is in spiritual practices.I know that in moments like these, leaning into faith could provide comfort, but in that moment, I just couldn’t bring myself to do so. I know that should be a time when I lean closest to God because He will be able to take those feelings away.

I even attempted to read over my daily devotions that I had missed from my 21-day challenge—being 5 days behind—I had it reading for me as I followed along, but that eventually ended with me falling asleep during the process. My exhaustion caught up with me, and in that moment, I realized that even in my efforts to get back on track, I needed to show myself grace.

This struggle reminds me of Isaiah 40:31: "But those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint." It reassures me that even when I feel spiritually and mentally drained, I can find renewal through faith. Knowing that my exhaustion isn’t a sign of failure but rather a reminder to lean on God brings a sense of peace. It allows me to shift my perspective from feeling defeated to embracing the opportunity for restoration. 🕊️💖

Finding Small Ways to Prioritize Mental Health 🌱🧘‍♀️💖

Rather than feeling guilty for not having everything together, I’m learning to embrace small, intentional steps:

Taking breaks – Allowing myself moments to breathe and reset instead of constantly pushing forward.
Journaling my thoughts – Writing helps me process emotions and untangle the mess in my mind.
Leaning into faith – Even when I don’t feel as connected, I’m making an effort to pray, meditate, or simply sit in silence.
Seeking support – Talking with friends, family, or even professionals when needed. We don’t have to navigate life’s struggles alone.
Practicing self-compassion – Reminding myself that I am human, and growth takes time.

Each of these small actions reminds me that healing isn’t about giant leaps—it’s about showing up for myself daily, even in the smallest ways. ❤️🌿💡

You Are Not Alone 🤝💬🌍

If you’re reading this and resonating with any part of my journey, I want you to know that you are not alone. Life is messy, unpredictable, and sometimes overwhelming, but we don’t have to go through it in isolation. Ultimately, we’re all in this together. As we strive to love ourselves better, let’s remember that faith can guide us through the darkest of times, helping us find the light within. "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future" (Jeremiah 29:11).

I invite anyone who’s feeling lost or struggling to join me on this journey. Let’s support each other in finding that inner peace, confronting our demons, and discovering what self-love truly means. It’s not about being perfect; it’s about being authentic and allowing ourselves to grow through the challenges, one day at a time.

How are you really feeling today? Let’s talk about it. No matter where you are emotionally, your feelings are valid, and you deserve a space to express them. 💙✨💬

With love,